"Another Blind Date" by ScullyBandit Rating: G Category: MSR Spoilers: Triangle, Fight the Future, Rain King Summary: Scully accepts a blind date without telling Mulder. Archive: Anywhere but keep my name and headers on it please. Disclaimer: These characters do not belong to me, but I wish they did. This is my VERY first attempt at fanfiction, I would love feedback very much! Carol117@aol.com "Mulder, when was the last time you went on a date?" Scully had uttered those words to Mulder when she found out he was attempting to dispense dating advice to a lovestruck country bumpkin on one of their latest assignments. Now her words were bouncing around in her head like a bat trapped in an attic. Who was she to talk? The question should have been "When was the last time either of us went on a date?" Too long. Like when she first became Mulder's partner. Six years ago. Gee, time flies when you're busy being abducted. Anyway, her one and only date during that time was the father of one of the kids at her nephew's birthday party. As pleasant and charming as he'd been, she ultimately abandoned him after an urgent phone call from Mulder. Mulder again. His name always cropped up whenever she thought about her extinct social life. He was the reason she never dated, never had time to date, never looked at anyone else. In the beginning, she was so immersed in her new FBI career; she had no time to devote to dating. Then she was so focused on her illness and survival that there was no question of involving someone in her mixed up life. Eventually, Scully didn't want anyone else in her life. Mulder had permeated through her walls of defense and set up shop in her heart. Unbeknownst to him, he'd become the center of her universe. Thinking back to the beginning, the word "jerk" came to mind. That's what she thought of him then, if she thought of him at all. Suspicion defined their relationship. Mulder thought she was a spy and it took a long time to change his mind. Trust came in time, and when it finally did evolve, it proved to be boundless and total. Good- natured teasing and flirting came naturally, more so for Mulder than for her. Still, Scully enjoyed it and looked forward to his clever remarks and rakish comments. Somewhere along the line she began to read meaning into his comments and welcome his rare touches, the guiding hand on the small of her back, the enveloping safety of his hugs when she needed him most. Somewhere along the line, Scully fell in love. Now it wasn't that funny anymore when Mulder flirted with her suggestively. At times, when he made physical contact, it was torturous. Scully knew Mulder thought of her as his closest friend. He trusted her with his life and had risked his life many times for her sake. She was certain he loved her in his own platonic way. How she hated that word. There was nothing 'platonic' about her feelings for him; that was for sure. Consequently she hid them well behind her cool blue gaze and indifferent expression, resigning herself to be contented with the time she spent with him working or hanging out in a 'friendly' manner. There had been a couple of times when the tide almost turned for them, but ended in ill fated missed chances. The first came one steamy summer day as Scully tried to tell Mulder she was leaving him for a fresh start in a new city; leading to an exchange of truths and an awakening in both that was unceremoniously stifled by the sting of a bee. Later in the Fall, delirious in a Bermuda hospital bed after being saved from near drowning, Mulder had spoken those three little words every woman dreams of hearing. He'd sat up in his bed with a stupid grin on his face and called her back to his bedside. "I love you," he said. Scully had never pretended to be as impassive as she had at that moment. She'd rolled her eyes, muttered "Oh brother" and then strolled out the door. Once in the hall, though, she'd trembled as she leaned on the wall for support. Hot blood raced through her veins and hammered in her ears. How long had she wished to hear him say that? His words rang hollow on her ears. She knew he didn't mean them. He was doped up with morphine, grateful to be alive, and too irrational to think clearly. If he even remembered what he'd said, he'd probably be embarrassed in the morning. Inside she'd felt her heart crack in two. The pain was horrendous. From that day on what little prospect she thought they had for moving their relationship to the next level seemed to slip away. As much as she tried to keep her chin up and her feelings buried, she found that, little by little, she and Mulder no longer moved in sync. The pair was drifting apart emotionally. There were times when she couldn't stand to be around him. More often she felt the urge to grab him by the collar, shake some sense into him and admit everything in her heart. Fear of making a fool of herself put an end to that. So here she was. It was late Friday afternoon and she was finishing up some paperwork and making notes on things to attend to Monday. Tonight she wasn't bringing any work home. She was heading out to shop for a new outfit for tomorrow night. She deserved it. A fresh start and a new outfit. Perfect. Last week Scully had bumped into Christine, an old friend from the F.B.I. Academy, as she hurried into the supermarket late one night. Having been members of the small female population who'd enrolled and managed to make it through the intensive physical and mental training, they'd gravitated toward each other for mutual support and companionship during those trying days. Once they'd graduated, their careers took them in different directions, but they still tried to stay in touch. Scully and Christine had chatted excitedly for a few minutes, and then Chris invited her to a dinner party she was planning for the following Saturday. On the sly, she told Scully there was a good possibility that another friend of hers - an attractive, single male - might attend and so if she was available, it might be a good opportunity for her to meet someone new. Scully had mulled it over for a day or two and then called Chris to say she would be there. It wasn't an easy decision, but in the end she knew it was the right one. Time was passing and she wasn't getting any younger. Besides, the way things were between her and Mulder these days, the pangs of loneliness were growing stronger. Even the mountain of work she had couldn't bury the feeling for long. Guiltily she peeked at Mulder, feet propped on his desk as he leaned precariously back in his chair. He was poring over some photos from a recent, very gruesome case they were working on. It was killing her. Part of her wanted to confess what she was about to do. Her heart actually ached for him, because he had no idea. It felt a bit like betrayal. OK. If she didn't stop now and get out of there, she was going to break down and spill the beans. "Hey Scully?" Oh no. All she wanted to do was say "Goodbye" and get out of there. What did he want? "Yeah Mulder?" "What's cookin' this weekend? Any big plans?" OH GOD! Was he suspicious? No, she was being paranoid. "Uh.... nothing exciting. Just getting together with some friends." Just going to meet some guy whose name she didn't even know who was the friend of a friend. Just going to cheat on you, Mulder, because I've been waiting long enough for you. "How about you?" She tried to be nonchalant, but knew there was a tremor in her voice, the pitch just slightly higher than normal. "Not much. I think I'll probably be back here tomorrow. There's something about these pictures that's not sitting well with me. I'm wondering if they or the evidence had been tampered with. You want to have a look, Scully?" He was still absorbed in his photos and never looked up. "I'd love to, but I have to get going. I have errands to run. See you Monday, Mulder." "Ok. See ya, Scully." Fine. Now she didn't feel so bad. He didn't really care what she was doing this weekend. And she wasn't cheating. She owed him nothing. As close as they were, they were not a couple. She didn't need to check with him every time she made a move. Feeling a little better, she zipped home to change, grabbed her credit card and set out to her final destination...the mall. By six o'clock the next evening, Scully was dressed to kill. One last check in the mirror. Copper tresses piled in soft curls, wispy strands falling to softly frame her face. Very unScullylike. Check. Just enough makeup to make her aquamarine irises sparkle and her lips appear even fuller than usual. Check. Brand new silk blouse with long flowing sleeves; plum colored to accent the color of her eyes. Wrap-around black silk skirt gently brushing the backs of her calves. Delicate black sandals held to her bare feet by a thin strap here and there. Perfect. Mulder wouldn't even recognize her. Mulder, Mulder, Mulder. This was no time to think of him. Prince charming was waiting.... maybe. Scully stepped onto Christine's porch fifteen minutes later feeling excited and nauseated. What was she doing? Irrationally, she missed Mulder more than ever. If only she could turn and run. She could call them from her cell phone and say there was an emergency. Coward. Just do it. She rang the bell and Christine answered it. "Dana! I'm so glad you came." Eyeing her friend, Christine exclaimed, "Wow! You look gorgeous!" and opened the door wider to admit Scully inside the long foyer. White trim accented pale yellow walls. A simple brass chandelier softly lit a staircase sweeping up to the second floor landing. Beyond the staircase, at the far end of the foyer, light spilled into the dim hallway and Scully could hear voices and muted music. "Here goes nothing," she thought as Chris led her down the hall into the light. The living room was glowing with the light of dozens of candles and a cozy fire crackled in a huge stone hearth. Two couples were lounging on the sofa drinking wine and conversing amiably as Chris's husband, Jack, poked at the fire. No one else was in site. OK, so where was Mr. Wonderful? "Dana! How are you?" Chimed Jack as he came over to give Scully a warm hug and a peck on the cheek. "You look beautiful." "Flattery will get you everywhere, Jack" Scully beamed at him. "We're just waiting on one more guest and then we'll sit down to dinner. I hope you like Beef Bourgenon." Well it didn't take much to figure out who they were waiting for. To calm her nerves, Scully filled her glass with wine and gravitated toward the nearest friendly face. She had to admit, Chris and Jack's friends were really quite interesting and some time later, absorbed in conversation, she didn't notice the doorbell ringing or Jack disappearing to answer it. Voices in the doorway naturally caused her to turn and see who was coming in. Good thing she was already planted on the couch, because it would have been embarrassing if her knees buckled under her and she hit the floor in a cascade of White Zinfandel. "MULDER!" gasped Scully. "SCULLY?" The sight of the two of them, wide-eyed, their jaws swinging open in the breeze, must have been hilarious. If she could stand, she would have barreled past him into the street. A ringing started up in her ears. Of all the men in the greater metropolitan area who could have been selected as her blind date... She couldn't even think let alone hear Chris over that annoying ringing sound. "Isn't this a riot? You two know each other?" Mulder spoke; his voice cracking on the first word. "Wah- ahem, We work together. We're partners actually." He watched her warily, probably wondering what her next move might be. Leave it to Scully to take it all in stride; pick up the ball and run with it. Run. That's what she wanted to do. "Yes, this definitely is a riot." Scully forced a strained laugh and could barely look Mulder in the eye. He seemed to have his own problem looking at Scully and appeared to be searching for the nearest exit. "I think this is wonderful. It's fate. Don't you agree, Honey?" Christine looked at Jack. Jack was a bit more aware of the pair's discomfort and tried to alleviate the tension by announcing dinner. As fate would have it, Scully and Mulder were seated directly opposite each other. Perfect. They each managed to eat, drink, and make merry small talk. At first they spent a lot of their energy avoiding each other's gaze. But as dinner progressed and more wine was imbibed, they both relaxed in each other's company and began to enjoy the evening. Jokes were exchanged regarding this chance encounter and their initial shock dissipated. After dinner, they all retired to the family room where yet another cozy fire blazed and soft music played from speakers hidden somewhere in the room. Mulder regaled them with funny tales gleaned from some of their stranger assignments and Scully chimed in here and there to add a comment or give her version of the story. The evening flew by and it started to get late. Gradually, two by two, the couples began to leave. Mulder and Scully were the last to leave-one by one. Mulder left first bidding goodbye to the host and hostess and calling "See you Monday, Scully" as he nonchalantly sauntered out the door. Catching up on old times, Scully stayed a bit longer to chat with Chris as Jack cleaned up. Soon a satisfying tiredness spread throughout her limbs she was ready to head home. At the door, Christine looked at her apologetically. "I'm really sorry to have put you in such an awkward position. I should have told you who would be here before you came." "That's OK, Chris. Everything turned out well in the end." "You two seem suited for each other. It's strange that you haven't gotten 'together' before this." "Well Chris, we work well together and that's what's important." Her friend detected a wistful quality in that last comment. "Anyway, thank you again for the delicious meal. I really enjoyed myself." "Really?" "Yes, I did. You have a beautiful home and you're a wonderful cook." "Goodnight Dana. Drive safely and I'll talk to you soon." "Goodnight, Chris," called Scully as she descended the wide porch steps and entered the soft glow of the carriage lanterns along the walkway. The stars were bright in the night sky and Scully walked slowly to her car, taking in the cool, crisp air, hoping to clear her head. So preoccupied with her thoughts was Scully, that she didn't notice the dark figure leaning on her car in the shadows of a large privacy hedge. Only when she crossed the street did she see him and she froze as her stomach tightened with fright. Then she heard him call softly in a familiar voice and she immediately relaxed. She had a feeling she might find him here. Or was it more accurate to say she was hoping? In her chest, innumerable emotions caused her heart to throb and her thoughts became hazy. Guilt and embarrassment were foremost in her mind. Who knew what he was thinking. But one thing was for sure; since he had accepted an offer of a blind date, he was not entertaining thoughts of any kind of 'romantic' relationship with her. Right now he was probably trying to think of some suitable justification for being here. "Pretty funny, ay Scully? Imagine someone setting us up. What were the odds on that?" "What WERE they thinking?" chuckled Scully with a big fake smile plastered on her face. "I never take these things seriously anyway. Statistically, the odds of finding the perfect mate on a blind date are stacked against you. But it's a good excuse to go out and buy a new outfit!" she supplied cheerfully. "Speaking of outfits," he said, his voice lowered suggestively, "You look stunning tonight." Scully knew he was staring straight at her because the suffused light from the street lamps was reflected in his eyes. "You should wear your hair like that more often. It's very flattering." Why was he doing this to her? Did he realize this was torture? "Thanks, Mulder. I appreciate that." Fake yawn. "Well, I'm beat. It was kind of you to wait up for me." She moved toward the driver's side door. "I'll see you Monday." Mulder blocked her path. "Scully wait." Now what? "What is it, Mulder?" "Can I ask you something?" He reached out and ran a finger down the sleeve of her coat. "How about asking me tomorrow over coffee. I'm really tired and I just want to go to bed." Plus I can still feel the lingering affects of alcohol and the night is gorgeous and I need the light of day to think clearly. "I'd rather not wait. That's why I stayed here." His words were imploring her to stay and listen. She had to admit she was curious. Curiosity killed the cat, Agent Scully. "OK, what gives?" She leaned against the hood of her car, crossing her arms in front of her chest and bundling herself more tightly against the chilly night air and, subconsciously, against Mulder. Mulder kicked a few unfortunate pebbles around with the toe of his shoe and seemed to be struggling to search for the right words. "Did you have a good time tonight?" "Yes, I had a very good time." Scully waited for more words, but they weren't forthcoming. "Was that the big question? If so, I'm leaving now." She moved toward the car door. "No, wait..." he moved a step closer to stop her from leaving. "Is there something else you'd like to know?" she asked trying to sound patient. "One other thing. I was kind of wondering... Why did you agree to a blind date? It's just not your style." he blurted at last. For Heaven's sake! How was she supposed to answer that? The answer was too complicated. Besides the fact that he was asking her to bare her soul and invite him to stomp all over her heart again. They weren't dating. She didn't belong to him and he had no business asking. Mulder was clearly a lunatic and she could no longer suppress her aggravation. "What kind of stupid question is that? Why DOES a person accept a blind date, Mulder? There are a million reasons...YOU pick one!" Silence. Sand crinkled under his shuffling feet. "Uh...because they're desperate?" His words were like a fist in her gut. DESPERATE? He thought she was desperate? Does he have ANY idea how many dates she'd refused from handsome, eligible men because of him? Because she'd held out hope that eventually, SOMEDAY, it would suddenly dawn on his thick head that they belonged together- professionally, romantically, spiritually, forever and ever, until death do we part. Now he was insinuating she was desperate and she wanted more than anything to scream. Scream in his face that she was here, standing in the darkness, still single and thirtysomething and lonely and it was all his fault! Then she would punch him. Make him feel inside what she was experiencing this very moment. Instead she just gawked at him for a moment, willing the nausea to fade away and her blood to stop boiling. "Well then that makes us two desperate people I guess." Taking a long deep breath, she stepped around him and unlocked her car door. "Wait Scully. I was just joking." He clutched her upper arm. "Please don't go yet?" Scully yanked her arm from his grasp. His fingers were burning through the layers of fabric; leaving his mark on her delicate skin. "What do you want from me, Mulder?" If stamping her feet didn't look so childish, she would have slammed the hard wooden heels of her black sandals into the pavement or maybe on his toes. But her own toes were beginning to get numb and her sandals too delicate and expensive to withstand the temper tantrum. Scully glared at him. He was obviously suffering some inner turmoil and the conflicting emotions constantly morphed the expression on his face. "Aren't you going to ask me why I came on this date, Scully?" His question both puzzled and irritated her. Wasn't it obvious why he came? Why would he ask her that? Defeated, she replied in a monotone, "OK Mulder. I'll bite. Why did you come on this date?" Whatever would get her out of this bewildering situation the quickest. By now she had opened the driver's side door and was sitting on the edge of the seat with the door open and her feet in the gutter. Her forehead was resting in the palm of her right hand as she studied the painted nails on her frozen toes. "I came, Scully, because I've waited for something to happen between us for so long and finally realized that nothing ever will." All those firearms exploding too closely to her eardrums had finally taken their toll. Her hearing was damaged. Mulder's words were not making any sense. Scully raised her head and focused on his mouth, hoping to better understand him by reading his lips. Mulder went on. "With everything we've been through, my feelings for you have grown. You made me trust you when I fought it tooth and nail for the longest time. Then somehow you became my best friend and I knew in my heart I would do anything for you. Those times when you were near death; when you had cancer and the time you got shot by that idiot partner of yours in New York...I couldn't even imagine what I would have done without you. When I wrecked my boat and was floating in the ocean, before I lost consciousness, all I could think of was you. I figured if I drowned I was going to go to Hell. You know what Hell would have been to me, Scully?" He didn't wait for her response. "Hell would have been to spend eternity never again able to see the sun glint off that gorgeous red head of yours, or watch your eyes change shades of blue when you're pissed off at me." She realized she was standing up now - quite stunned. What could she say? She could explain cryptic mysteries by piecing together the most fragile, virtually imperceptible evidence. Yet, she never had a clue about this. Love was blind...legally blind. "Why didn't you tell me before?" was all she managed to squeak out. "I did tell you." Mulder looked away and squinted as if straining to see objects shrouded in the blanket of darkness. "When, Mulder? When did you ever communicate how you felt toward me?" She was so confused. She knew she'd never forget a conversation like that. "Oh brother, Scully." Her head was spinning trying to follow this exchange. "Look, Mulder. You opened this can of worms so now is definitely not the time to mock me." Mulder hesitated, as if debating whether to continue what he'd started. Taking a deep breath, he went on. "What I mean is...that's all YOU had to say to ME...that night in the hospital... in Bermuda....when I told you how I felt about you. You said 'Oh brother', turned your back and walked away." "Mulder! you were high as a kite on morphine and babbling about a ghost ship in the middle of the Bermuda Triangle. You weren't yourself; you had no idea what you were talking about so why would I give credence to ANYTHING you uttered? Especially that!" Scully was now beginning to comprehend the degree to which she had royally screwed up. It made her sick to realize how shattered Mulder must have been when she heartlessly disregarded his tender revelation. At the time, the only feelings she'd thought of were her own. "It makes no difference whether you believe what I said about The Queen Anne...which , I might add, is THE TRUTH. However, I would never have said 'THAT' as you refer to it, if I didn't really mean it and intended for you to know it, no matter HOW demented I was." The whole night and especially this moment was all so surreal. Scully imagined that any second now she would hover above the street lamp and see herself staring dumbfounded at Mulder. Everything he had said sounded like a disembodied voice coming by way of Surround Sound. Scully became aware that he was watching her, expecting a response. Hours ticked by, or were they mere seconds? This was it. The turning point. The moment she'd been waiting for. Was he really saying what she thought he was saying? For more than a year now, she'd rehearsed how it would happen, every possible scenario; what her response would be. Funny how it had played out much more romantically in her fantasies. She should have known it would never happen that way. What WAS she thinking? With all the bizarre, sometimes inexplicable experiences she'd managed to live through with Mulder by her side, why would their relationship mirror any type of normalcy? Who wanted that anyway? Ordinary was monotonous. Scully liked things the way they were with him; impromptu and exhilarating. Slamming the car door, she stood two feet in front of Mulder with her legs planted solidly. Even in the dark, her sapphire eyes bore a look of determination. Enough was enough. "Tell me again." She demanded. "Tell you what again?" Mulder asked in a baffled tone. "Please repeat everything you said to me in the hospital room in Bermuda and don't leave out a single syllable." Now who was the lunatic? Obediently, Mulder dug back into the drug- induced fog of several months ago and repeated word for word the story of the ghost ship and the Nazis and how Scully saved the world. Then he stopped right after the part where she told him to close his eyes and say, "There's no place like home." "Go on." Scully urged almost breathlessly. Mulder swallowed hard. Scully watched his Adam's apple bob up and down once. "Scully?" "What is it, Mulder." She almost couldn't make the words come out; her throat was so dry. He reached out and grasped both her hands in his, caressing her smooth skin with his thumbs. "I love you." He said it with the same deep timbre that had sent delicious shivers down her spine the first time. Taking a step forward, she bridged the gap between their bodies and wrapped her arms around his lower back, lifting her chin to meet his radiant green eyes once more. She quivered as Mulder's warm fingers slid into her silky copper hair to support her tilted head. He used his other hand to span the middle of her back and pull her firmly against him. Scully had never felt so alive; every sense was infinitely heightened. "I love you too, Mulder. Very much." That was the understatement of a lifetime she thought as she smiled up at him. Her eyes moved to his mouth in a silent invitation. Mulder smiled back and she could feel the vibrations in his chest as he chuckled softly. "Now do you believe me, Scully?" "Shut up and kiss me, Mulder." In their second floor bedroom, Christine had turned out the light and was about to pull down the shades when she noticed the couple embracing on the sidewalk across the street. "Jack, come here quick!" Her husband ran out of their bathroom, toothbrush in hand, obviously alarmed. "What is it? What's wrong?" "Isn't that Dana and Fox out there?" Jack peeked out at the couple who was now kissing passionately; the man bending on occasion to kiss and nuzzle the woman's neck while she held tight to his shoulders and ran her fingers through his hair. He could just about make out the woman's petite stature and reddish-copper hair in the light from the street lamp; a dead giveaway. "Yep, seems to be them. Now pull down the shade and give them some privacy." Jack headed back to the bathroom to finish brushing his teeth. "See, I told you they were perfect for each other. They just didn't know it yet." A minute or two later, Chris took one last look out into the street below and saw Scully's car pulling away from the curb with Mulder driving and Scully in the passenger seat. Jack was thinking as he settled himself into their king-sized bed. He called out softly to his wife. "I think they knew it, Honey. But your little scheme didn't hurt. Now come to bed." Chris watched the red taillights disappearing with a content smile on her face. She was delighted for her friend Dana. "Good luck, you two." Christine whispered to no one in particular and then slowly pulled down the shade.